reshaping the ordinary

dance artist, jivamukti yogini, raw foodie, doula and lover, traveling to perform, create and share my light with the world.

Category: rawlifestyle

going back to the begining

some mornings, or evenings, or in-betweeenings

you may ask yourself:

how did i end up here.

when did it begin?

what is the root of how things are the way they are.

perhaps it was when i met you in the dance studio.


maybe it was when mom met dad…

but how did they get there.

you can be a victim, or you can be enlightened. what starts out as a light hearted musing can so easily become a depressing regret-filled pit. don’t go down the spiral, why choose sadness?

Patanjali has some good advice on this.

YS II.33 vitarka-badhane pratipaksha-bhavanam

When disturbed by disturbing thoughts, think of the opposite.


a glimpse

so to answer the question what do you eat, as i discussed in my last post, i can’t just talk about food, what we eat is who we surround ourselves with, what we read, what we watch on TV. so, to answer this question, i’ll share a glimpse at a day in the life.

beginning with the breath, a clean slate, a clear dance floor.

each day is not ideal, some days it’s more of a gravitational battle to get out of bed, some days i work 8am-7:30pm and just can not manage to fit in all of my self care practices. yet some days kundalini is high and all is smooth. here is a glimpse at a pretty typical day, this was my day yesterday .

6:27 my alarm sounds “good morning starshine” i snake around in my bed, slowly easing my systems back in to this plane of reality, sliding out of the bed and thinking through my internal gratitude list. actively reminding myself of all that i have to be grateful for and silently giving thanks. it’s not always so smooth, but always meaningful.

my first contact to the earth has been heavy these days, like a sloth, i suprise myself with the weight, as through most of the day i am airy, and i reach over for the coconut oil.

my first protocol of the morning is oil pulling. i started pulling over a year ago, and do it pretty much every day. i use coconut oil, as i understand it has all the benefits of sesame but also antiseptic qualities. and i pull for 20 minutes, usually while getting dressed, organized and ready for the day. this often includes performing the Jivamukti Magic Ten, using eft to decide what to wear, and always always, putting on my selfic piece from Damanhur the blue mascara and pikake oil that i have been wearing since my early childhood years. after that i brush my teeth, scrape my tongue.

as an aside, i never thought of the word protocol until i began listening to extreme health radio, which is often informative, if frustrating, they host amazing guest speakers and implant innovative ideas. protocol is such a funny word and an interesting way for me to consider the activities in my life. i’ve found placing value on activities helps, organizing and setting aside time for everything i want to fit in.

your life is as valuable as you make it.

7:02 i head to practice. i try to get some movement in prior to breaking my fast {breakfast is meant to be just that, breaking a fast, which is why i try not to eat after 8pm.} my days are so varied so i’ll go with today, i did a ballet practice. living in community i do not have access to many technique classes, but i keep myself on point {en pointe} with at least barre if not more as often as possible. at omega there is a studio in the woods called hillhouse it is perfection. derelict and moldy, but loved, spacious and with windows overlooking the woods, this building tops my gratitude list every time.

8:15 romp through the forest to breakfast. most days i eat a green shake for breakfast. my shakes tend to overwhelm the average smoothie drinker, with inspiration from the wisdom of David Wolfe‘s “live it” philosophy i tend to throw in everything but the kitchen sink. i  harvest as many  usually i’ll eat outside with good company. today it was a darling devoted yogi friend and student. because i eat mostly raw whole foods, i don’t need as much time to digest, and after eating am pretty much ready to go for the next activity. today i walked with my friend for a while, he had a stuffed nose and we got him organized with a neti pot so he could practice jala neti.

10:00 lakeside yoga practice. following the 14 points of Jivamukti often with a podcast or recorded class from Padmaji Sharon Gannon and David Life. often followed by good conversation down by the lake. today it was with my darling fleeting fairy friend the guard of lives. practice is transcendental for me.

12:00 teach. one of my co-workers arranged a weekly lunchtime yoga dojo a 60 minute time for practice in the middle of the day. it was an honor to be asked to share in the dojo and i taught the Jivamukti Spiritual Warrior class

A brisk, guided, led vinyasa class. The class offers a well-rounded practice as a set sequence that includes a warm-up, the setting of an elevated intention, chanting, surya namaskar, standing asanas, twists, balances, backward bending, forward bending and inversions, as well as meditation and relaxation, designed to be completed in one hour.

13:00 lunch. today a green salad. followed by fruit. i’m finding as a raw vegan that fruit is my mainstay, particularly grapefruits and bananas. nuts, and seeds, are great in moderation. but i’m finding too much reliance on those foods leaves me feeling less than happy.

14:00 arrive at work. i am working at the Omega Institute in upstate New York at the Wellness Center.  i am a reservationist or party planner and my job requires sitting at the desk ready for walk in and phone in guests.  mostly this is a solo job, but points of connection are everywhere. in my shift i find time for decompressing with co-workers, allowing angry or triggering customers to act as teachers and tools for self study, strengthening my communication and listening skills. i am forever grateful that my current role at Omega also affords me time to work on personal study (i’m learning sanskrit, deepening my knowledge of holistic nutrition, developing class curriculum and organizing classes/events as well as writing, reading, and generally organizing the goings on of this rawesome and busy life. 

at some point in my shift there is a dinner break, meal breaks on shift are short, too short for me as i take so much time for food preparation, but recently i have been making banana ice cream for dinner and eating it with field greens creating a sort of raw vegan ice-cream wrap.  i’ll write more about this delicious nutritious meal option at a later date.

20:30 get off work. munch on a grapefruit and, as i’ve miraculously managed to fit in my dance, yoga and meditation practice in for the day the night is free to spend with friends, depending on the day of the week, different events; kirtan on thursdays, reiki sessions wednesdays.  today it was the full moon gathering at COSM Alex Grey and Allyson Grey’s art church. with live art being created inside along with the entire house exhibit of Alex and Allyson’s work.  dancefloors and dj’s a huge bonfire and various tents and spaces for yoga, fire spinning, cuddles, and recreating. as a dancer, i just want to dance and find the environment of young adults expanding their consciousness to be the perfect venue. bouncing from friend to friend, deep discussion to joyful dance, this is the perfect end to a beautiful day.

as the sober representative of the group, munching on an apple i drove 14 of my dear friends home (in a 15 passenger van) and was in bed by 3:30am, all to repeat step 1 at 6:27.

so, in sum, today i ate; a green shake, a banana, 2 apples, a green salad, 2 grapefruits and banana-ice-cream. but really i ate in so much more.

living in sweet abundant bliss (which often requires rigorous work, but if the goal is lofty, we must be willing to work hard to get there).